Some nights I lay in bed, my mind racing unable to sleep. Tonight is one of those nights. For the past 2+ hours I’ve been trying to go back to sleep and it’s just not there.
I’m a thinker, so I think. A lot of it centers on my personal views towards things and how that relates to others and things I’ve read, research I’ve done, so on and so forth. But, sometimes its just about life. I like to be informed though. The more you know about something or someone the better you can make a case for or against something or someone. So I read things, newspaper articles, books, magazine articles, research pieces, data, whatever reputable information I can find, from BOTH SIDES of the argument. That last part is important to me. I like to know both sides of the argument. Knowing both sides helps me make an informed decision.
So, nights like this I lay in bed and think. Reflect if you will. For and against. Pros and cons. Argument and counter argument. It goes on like this until I feel satisfied-or just get tired enough that I just fall asleep-with whatever outcome I’ve reached based on facts. Not emotion, or rhetoric, just facts.
Sometimes it’s not even about coming to a new decision, it’s about refining an old one. Using new information, new data, statistics, to reinforce an old decision. This is one of those reinforcing nights. These tend to keep me up less than debating a new position or even challenging an old one, but this one in particular just makes me not like people so its proving difficult to let go.
So here I am, 2+ hours in and I don’t know how much longer to go, but I’m here in bed thinking.