I Stand Alone

Jay

25 & residing in NYC. Student of life.
Infatuated with cars, good reads, and the pursuit of knowledge.

To live is to choose. But to choose well, you must know who you are
and what you stand for, where you want to
go and why you want to get there. ~Kofi Annan

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This Walmart has 30+ lines, only 5 of them are currently open. Wtf is the point of all the lines when they’re just gonna be closed?! Makes no damn sense.

I hate Times Square with a purpose. It’s a terrible fucking place. The tourist. The fucking tourist. I hate them.

Either way, ventured down there today after work to hit up the Levi’s store. 2 pairs of jeans for $27. Yes please!!!

Either way, what’s up?

This lady at work has the radio on throughout the day, and it’s just the same shit everyday. All day. Music really just sucks and sounds the same on the radio.

One really has to go past radio and search out good artist, putting out good music these days. Granted yes, they’re a few artist who rightfully so get a lot of airtime, but shit everything else sucks.

When I’m in NY I’m at one of either 2 addresses. My BK address is a few blocks down from Kings Plaza in the Mill Basin area, which means the water is literally right across the street. It’s nice to walk out the house on nice nights to the smell of salt water in the air.

It’s relaxing being that close to the water. Reminds me (in smell and proximity to water alone) of being back home in the islands- St. Lucia(Full disclosure I grew up there). My grandmothers house was a very short walk to the beach (you could see the beach from the balcony) and the smell of salt water and general island goodness was always very relaxing to me. It’s nice to get that kinda every once in a while.

3:30 and I just don’t feel like sleeping. Bored. Hungry. Would like some titties in my face. Would like to go for a drive to clear my head a bit. Plus the city looks nice at night when its mostly asleep.

I’m just yeah…just one of those nights I guess. So much I want to say, just don’t know how. C’est la vie.

My girlfriend is in optometry school studying to be an eye doctor, and I sat for her yesterday so she can practice procedures and stuff on me. She took this while doing some procedure on me and its super cool. I have pictures of my actual eye as well under magnification but it just doesn’t look as nice as my eye lashes under magnification.

My girlfriend is in optometry school studying to be an eye doctor, and I sat for her yesterday so she can practice procedures and stuff on me. She took this while doing some procedure on me and its super cool. I have pictures of my actual eye as well under magnification but it just doesn’t look as nice as my eye lashes under magnification.

I’m waiting for my girlfriend at the Dr and the Steve Harvey show is on and its terrible. I don’t understand why he has his own show. First and last time I’m watching this.

Anyway, Tyler Perry is on and I don’t like him. Well not him specifically, I respect his hustle, but, his movies are terrible. It amazes me how the black community gets all bent out of shape of the depiction of black people in movies -warranted or not..personal opinion largely unwarranted- but yet love this dudes movies. If anything in the movies makes black people look bad it’s his movies, yet people love his movies, the more ratchet they are the better. It just doesn’t make much sense to me.

It’s fun (read interesting) hearing/participating in these great political debates with my parents. They really are angry people. More so my father than my mother, but they really don’t like anyone.

My mother though is a special kind of person because she really doesn’t care about feelings. She’s very much a tell it like it is person and I get my assholeness directly from her. So politics in particular shes invested and especially forward. She’s been involved or around politics most of her life so things happening these days mean something to her.

News, current events and politics has become an increasingly big part of my life and to a large degree thats because of my mother. I’m not as dire in my outlook on the state of this country as she is, but I’m interested in what happens.

It is the middle of January and its 50+ degrees outside. What?!

I just wanna do hoodrat shit with my friends but the Falcons and Niners are playing currently and later, the ravens and pats are playing, so that means I’m sitting my ass down and getting comfortable. 

Stuff

  • It’s day number 3 and I still don’t really have a voice. Maybe about 70% if that. Sunday night/ Monday morning I had zero. 
  • I’ve been tasked with learning Excel inside and out. I’m decent in excel-read I know the basics and a little bit more..the important shit-but for what I’m trying to get into, decent isn’t good enough. 
  • I’ve also been tasked with learning all I can about analytics by Feb. 4. 
  • I don’t fully even know if all of this is something I want to do, or a career field I want to pursue but, its always good to know more stuff. 
  • My wallet got delivered today! Ordered it a couple weeks ago, and its a made to order wallet so it just took forever to come. It’s here. I’m excited. 

Thats all. 

Higher Education

Im concerned for the state of higher education in this country. Well not just higher education, but education in general. Theres a myriad of issues I see with the whole thing, and honestly, funding for education should be the least of peoples concerns. 

One of my papers that I have to write is a group paper with 5 other people. I HATE group work. Either way, I have all their respective papers and I have to pull it all together into one cohesive paper, plus add my few pages of work. This is what I’m working with so far: 

Take your time and manage the resourcefulness of the individual. Companies should also plan implementations. After signifying implementation you must in the impact, impression and take forth with action.” 

I don’t know wtf is going on here. The rest of the paper isn’t much better. The others I’ve received aren’t as bad as this first one, but really though? This is writing from a mid 20’s female who is a manager at a store. Assistant manager if I remember correctly. I just don’t understand how someone gets through life like that, and how the education system as a whole, lets someone get through life writing things like that. 

I’m not the best writer around-my girlfriend is a better writer than me, and her younger brother is an amazing writer-but I give a shit about what I writing and how I’m writing. I can put together a cohesive paper that actually makes sense, even if its all bullshit. That shit is just unacceptable. 

I’m concerned about the quality of people advancing through the education system, if this is whats going on.

Film anyone? My mother has had this camera since forever! Its captured many family moments, vacations, family visits, and other random stuff. However, its been sitting idle in my parents room for a very long time, kinda just there lonely. For a while now i’ve wanted to get back into taking pictures but, buying the DSLR I want just isn’t happening right now. The alternative? Why film of course. I’ve seen some pretty rad pictures taken with a film camera, and I just love the texture you get from shooting film. It has a very nice look to it. So, this old SLR camera thats seen some things in its lifetime, is gonna get a rebirth or sorts. I have time these days really to do whatever. The world is my oyster so to speak. So, i’m going to embark on this little journey of film and see where it takes me. 

Film anyone? My mother has had this camera since forever! Its captured many family moments, vacations, family visits, and other random stuff. However, its been sitting idle in my parents room for a very long time, kinda just there lonely. For a while now i’ve wanted to get back into taking pictures but, buying the DSLR I want just isn’t happening right now. The alternative? Why film of course. I’ve seen some pretty rad pictures taken with a film camera, and I just love the texture you get from shooting film. It has a very nice look to it. So, this old SLR camera thats seen some things in its lifetime, is gonna get a rebirth or sorts. I have time these days really to do whatever. The world is my oyster so to speak. So, i’m going to embark on this little journey of film and see where it takes me.